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I just absolutely hate it when I have an argument with you. I just HATE it.

You are just way too defensive. Sometimes I wonder, why bother asking for my opinion anyway? You’re only either going to be defensive or bite me back after that. Do you only want me to agree with you all the time is it? Cause girl, that’s not how I roll. You asked, I give you my opinion. And it’s usually overly trivial matters too! Urgh! I don’t get why you don’t give me room to be frustrated about something, but when you are frustrated about something, I am not allowed to comment! I am not allowed to tell you to chill it! But when I am frustrated about something, you give me excuses for them. Sudah atuuuu. Kalau kedia, marah ia dah tu.

Sigh, I just had to rant this. I wouldn’t post it on facebook cause it would be read by everyone, and they would know who. But OMG. STOP FIGHTING WITH ME. And when I want to stop the argument and just drop it (cause it’s pointless anyway), noooo. You want to carry on. You even want someone to back you up. Do you miss having a fight with someone or something? You asked me what I think, I answered, and you went too defensive and went to that tone where you put your chin up, and eyes looking down, “so you think, aku salah lah?” ENTAH LAH!

Kalau sudah ku drop, you’d go nanti I bring it up to somebody lagi. And I said fine, I wouldn’t. And guess what, I’m going to do it better! I’m not going to confide in that significant other about you, and I kept my word, I haven’t ever since. I actually even answered, “entah, karang you cerita jua arahnya,”. You think you know everything there is, is it? You think that person inda cerita pasal you jua kah? HAHAHAHA. So, you think you were perfect lah??? Dear, no one is. And he tells me stuff about you too. The difference between us is, I kept it to myself to understand you better, you kept it to use as a weapon against me.

Please, stop hurting me, I just hate fighting. And since I can’t confide in anyone (unlike you, who can still confide in that person, and your significant other), please just stop it. And stop being too egoistic, and stop thinking that I’m saying this because I think I’m more educated than you are. You are soooo wrong. I am in no way smarter than you. We just had different opportunities in life, and we used the opportunities we had differently. So, in no way, did I try to raise my opinions on the issues you brought up, was I bragging about how you should listen to me because I have a piece of paper. N. O.

Pleaaasseeee.. the fact that I am the opinionated kind, doesn’t help either. Urgh!

Cemanilah saja ah. My solution. Next time you ask me for my opinion, I’ll say “ENTAH” / “MANASAJA KO” / “UP TO YOU”. So by that you should also understand, that I am in no way supporting nor against your decisions, and hence is not to be held responsible for your actions. Thank you.

Ya Allah, jauhkanlah pertelingkahan diantara aku dan sekalian hambaMu. Amin. 

I would soooo love this! Imagine having warm towels everyday! Warm pillows too! Hahaha But I don’t think they have pillow warmers. But isn’t this cool?

Towel Warmer

Looks great too! I don’t these are available here though? And I would think they’d cost a bundle! But.. AAHHHH…

In the past, I hear a lot of teachers complaining that they had to book or race with other teachers who can use the projector for a specific time. I didn’t have this problem, and thought, hey, so why should I splurge on a projector? They don’t exactly come in cheap okay. And there are loads of other things that I can purchase. BUT THEN! I told this other teacher in my department, how he can use the department’s projector to teach and write less thus saving ink, I had trouble in getting the projector all the myself! Hahaha.

So, after that incident, I thought maybe I should get one. I don’t have a clue which one would be good and yet affordable, but my criteria are :

• CHEAP
• Long-lasting
• Low maintenance
• Light
• Small
• Projects big enough of an image
• Clear images (duh!)

Casio Projector

This is almost perrrrfect! The price atu ganya membari jantung melabuk! LOL

Now, I don’t exactly fall in love with perfumes easily. But Bvlgari has always made my head turn. Ahhh nyaman. And what recently caught my NOSE  (hahaha) were :

Bvlgari Rose Essentielle

andddd

Gucci by Gucci

And yes, I noticed, they are both packed in a dull pink tone. LOL Pasal atu tah aku suruh salesgirl atu ambilkan.. And it turns out, I LOOOVEE THEM! Masalahnya, inda salahku, the Bvlgari costs around $240? and the Gucci costs around $96? So for someone who doesn’t buy perfume a lot, let alone expensive ones…. tunggu tah dulu tu eh!

I’ve been playing with my own little wishlist lately, and I thought well hey, I have a blog which is in dire need of updating, let’s put 2 and 2 together! So, what I’m going to do, is I’m going to post my wishes here. Some maybe extravagant, some may be lame, but the heart wants what the heart wants! Hahaha.

So what makes my first wishlist post you say? This particular item has been playing in my mind for a few days.

Ultra-slim Velvet Hanger... in such a lovely colour!

Hahaha. Okay, I know what you’re thinking, like whatttt?? Y’see, I’ve always wanted to have a uniform hanger for all my clothes. One colour. One material. Dulu, I wanted those woody ones you can get at Ikea or any department stores. But then those things are bulky and I don’t think they’re very practical. Unless if you have a walk-in closet and don’t have many clothes, then go ahead. LAWA. These things actually caught my attention months ago, inda ku ingat siapa creatornya but well done! They save SPACE! And let’s face it, space is something that a lot of people lack of these days. And they are non-slip! And they come in dull pink. GAGAGAGAGA. LAWA!!!  But since they’re velvet, these things are strictly for dalam almari only. Bukan untuk menjamur pakaian di luar, mind you. If not, the colours may bleed to your baju. Lagi sayang. So yeah, here I am, googling for best prices to compare them and whatnots. Yang di Brunei ani, alum ku meliat yang velvet. Abis-abis basi and plastic. Those plastic inda tahan and if tahan mahal and tabal. OCD much eh. But if you do know any stores in Brunei yang jual, let me know. I think it would save me more money if I can get it here… well duh! hahaha

Again. The pros :

• Ultra-slim hence save space.
• Non-slip
• If I can get in bulk, then jadi uniform hanger.
• Widthnya bisai untuk pants (not that I hang them, inda cukup space, but who knows after this… lol)
• Stronger
• Doesn’t bend easily (yang basi atu, yang kadai dobi atu, bends easily tu)

But seriously, siuk jua mata memandang tu… hehehe. OOOOH and look what I found:

PINK clothes organising system

LAWA AH! I tell you, this Joy Mangano person, is AMAZING! Well done Joy. Can’t wait to transform my closet! Actually…. can’t wait to have my own walk-in closet! But that deserves another wishlist post, donchathink? LOL

This is it! The end of the second term school holidays. Back to WORK!

Not all of my to-dos are done.

But on the bright side, this June holidays, I got to:

1. Go to the beach for a verrrry nice swim and good food (ayam goreng ala Abah, nasi licak sikit and sos tomato maggi, now isn’t that good life?), panas-panas pasal membawa tambak. At a very nice beach! Pantai Tungku. Nice, pasal ombaknya, just nice. Although I prefer nada ombak, but ani siuk jua. Hehehe. And yang siuknya lagi, the shore inda jauh kan ke deep-enough water. So inda jauh lah you swim. Heehee. Oh and we went there mengikis! Siuk lah.
   

   Weird Chair at Tungku Beach Lol

2. Go to the beach for a barbecue with the family, at Pantai Perasingan. Bermandi-manda sambil dilanggar-langgar oleh ombak yang penuh dengan pasir.
   

   Aleeyah and Naqi- my turn at the hammock

3. Go to Miri overnight with the family.
   

   At the hotel with the family

4. Go to KB with my geng keras. Heehee And eat yummy food. And slept over! =D
   

   Doraemon Car Mats at Soon Lee KB

5. Go to Jerudong Park Playground with my Geng Keras. Play spin spinnnnn… and Photoshoot!
   

   At JP with Geng Keras (Hi Neny!)

6. Main sama kucing and arnab. Berabis durang kana jaga cuti ani rasaku. And some more, I baruuuu got the cats kan, so siuk berkenalan. Aku buang taienya, aku mandikan, bagi makan hari-hari. Cuci cage. Aduiiii… seksa. Tapi siuk. LOL.
   

   Muezza on my bed

7. Hang out with the Girly Bloggers.
   

   The Girly Bloggers - Thank you Kisich! Nyahaha

8. And spend even more time with Abah! <3
   

   Abah & Atul

Naqi : Naqi mana sekulah kan ni Mit?

Amit (Me) : Sekulah ehhh, mengapa plang inda?

Naqi : Niii, Naqi hitam ah (pasal sun burnt)..
*Abah and I burst out laughing lol*

Abah : Inda jua apaaa, orang itam-itam sekulah jua!

Diam tia Naqi..  Cali kau ani Naqi, Naqiiii…

Was supposed to post this last night, but I’m going to cheat. Internet was being kejam jua bah. Ani baru ia kan bisai.

Anyhoots, sedihku kan mempost ani banarnya. DAY 100. FINAL. THE END. The end to anything has always given me that feeling where you feel like ehhh siuk abis dah, finally! Akan tetapi, ada jua rasanya macam, awwwwhhh so abis tah tu? Inda tah ada lagi ni? So yeah. That’s how I feel for this one. It was fun reading their blogs.. and posting the same topic but different isi? Siuk jua tu ah. Different lives. Eh macam cikgu English membaca composition lain-lain bah tu ah? Or cikgu malay.

Saya ada ayam. Ayam saya bernama Courtney.

Saya ada ayam. Ayam saya bernama Alex.

Apakan! Random!

So final photo ah? Mari kita redah facebook kita dahulu. Jeng jeng jeng…

Whatever you do, don’t be too busy to enjoy the little things in life.. like Nutella! LOL

What makes me feel accomplished? When I’ve spent quite some time sorting stuff or doing a lot of stuff on the computer and seeing them e-mailed out! Or PRINTED out (even better)! And when I finished marking. That feeling is just AWESOME. And I’ve yet to have that cuti ani. Baru satu ku e-mail tadi. At 3.25am! HARHAR. Going out of the country today, yang inda jauh atu bahhhh, esok balik. Iatah ijab nada cukup masa kan buat lagi. LOL. So yeah…

Printed atu lah berabis! Like, when I made my own photobook and having those distributed during graduation for all to enjoy. That was amazing! Masalahnya my copy hancur bakas accident (it was in the car). And it was individually printed jua! WITH NAMES! Cool kan? Kambanggg lol.

And another thing that I’m proud of? With help of course… An idea, that sparked. With a selected few, I lead my team. Alhamdulillah, menjadi jua…

Topical AS past year papers

Told ya! I like it when I see my work printed.. shows that I’ve actually ACCOMPLISHED something.

Iatah, second partnya alum siap ni nah! LOL

French Manicure

Okay, I don’t really wear nail polish, so I don’t have a favourite, but I’ve always loved french manicure. =)

A heart-shaped stone I found at Tungku Beach

This stone actually has a story behind it. I found it at Tungku Beach for one thing. A beach of where I spent most of my emo moments. My place-to-go if you will. I’d sit there or walk alone on the shore, basking in the beautiful scenery and try to come in to terms with whatever problems I had with at the time.

So this one day, I felt like I would never find THE ONE. I was talking to myself whilst walking on the beach wiping off those tears.. But really, I wasn’t talking to myself. I was praying and asking Him, if there will be someone for me?

And then I found that… I take that as a sign… and left the beach with a calm heart and a smile on my face.

I’ll be alright. =)